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(no subject) [Jun. 9th, 2014|11:12 am]
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A published novelist started following me on tumblr (Richard Marcello.) If an interesting novelist/songwriter w/immaculate taste in music is interested in how I present the minutiae of my daily life, then my life is made.

Now I have to check out his books and see if he is any good... when I have time. =)
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2013|11:07 am]
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Wow, I haven't updated this thing in forever, but tumblr is blocked where I am so...

I'm freaking out a little today. I want to go to an al anon meeting in Denver tonight, but I'm not sure which one. I'd really like to go to the 8 one (that my sponsor goes to) but that means I get home at 11 and my sleep is already off. So I'm not sure.

I have to make a 20-minute presentation in my greenbuilding class tomorrow which is nervewracking and the teacher is kind of a jerk too, which doesn't help...

Then Thursday I have my last restorative justice class (and last class for the semester in general,) thank god. Then I'm going to work during the summer (probably at King sooper's or Safeway or something..)

Aggh stress. But I just gotta keep pedaling forward...

Long time, no see! I hope you're all doing well!
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(no subject) [Jul. 28th, 2012|03:37 pm]
"Never is a Promise" by Fiona Apple

You'll never see the courage I know
Its color's richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie

You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you

You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie

You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie

I'll never hear/think of this song without thinking of Colin now. I really hope he can find the courage to do what he needs/wants to do in his life. He'll no longer be in mine unfortunately, but I do wish him the best.
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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2012|03:10 pm]
"A happy song isn't really happy"

I wish she was my friend, but considering I've been on-and-off obsessed with her/her music for 10 years, that friendship would never work. :P
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(no subject) [Jul. 23rd, 2012|11:27 pm]
The text that is keeping me from going into old behaviors tonight:

"Hi Halley. Going to sleep now but it's good to hear from you. I hope that meetings and meditation help you relax into yourself.. the amazing person you are and are becoming. Having a network make me feel a lot more steady and grounded."

Denver al anon is the shit. The fact that I already made a really nice friend/connection speaks well of it. I didn't go today because I went yesterday, but I'm looking forward to going tomorrow. I have to go to sleep now. :P
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(no subject) [Jul. 21st, 2012|12:21 am]


Wow going to see Fiona Apple live was like a religious event.. amazing. It means a lot to me that her old songs clearly still mean a lot to her (in the way she performs them,) as they still mean a lot to me. She's spectacular.

I'm fairly sure my top 2 female artists (or artists, in general) will always be Fiona Apple and Aimee Mann.. no one can top them, seriously. I am so happy they have graced the planet with their talent and magnificence.

This was the setlist:
Fast as You Can
On the Bound
Paper Bag (best one, I feel, but that is one of my favorites)
Anything We Want
Get Gone (this was great! but so were all of them!)
Sleep to Dream
Extraordinary Machine
I Know
Every Single Night
Not About Love
It's Only Make Believe

I actually left a little bit early (so I could catch an 11 bus) so I didn't see the end. But everything I saw was amazing. I do have more to write.. but I'm exhausted from the day I had yesterday, so I probably will a bit later. Thanks for reading. ♥

And you can use my skin
to bury secrets in
and I will settle you down
and at my own suggestions
I will ask no questions
while I do my thing in the background
but all the time, all the time, I'll know
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(no subject) [Jul. 20th, 2012|07:51 am]
My day is going to suck until I see Fiona APple live.. but it's cool! This could be a once in a lifetime thing!
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8 Sarah Harmer icons [May. 24th, 2012|10:04 pm]
Please credit, and enjoy!

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I know I need to make some icons of this beautiful and talented woman playing guitar.. hopefully next time!
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2012|08:32 am]
Day 7 of trying to get over being sick, I'm still a little sick but there's nothing I can do (well except avoid hot yoga, I know that wouldn't help..) Anyway, I know I'm almost there, but I just really need to get better!

Feeling kind of down, but what can you do. I can say I appreciate the phrase "fake it until you make it;" I mean I don't really feel like doing anything, but I will anyway.

I'll conclude this update w/posting a comic I appreciate lol.  I've been going to a lot of meetings lately and I definitely experience this sometimes..  I'm glad there are other AA'ers who can see the humor in things. :P

cartoon of werewolf

"Is this anyone's first AA meeting?" DLW, Bartlett

... they do say that the newcomer is the most important person at any meeting, but sometimes I'm not in the mood for it. :P  I do get it, though.

Well, I must get out of bed now. :P
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A goddess post [May. 15th, 2012|10:36 pm]

“What’s interesting to me is drama and conflict. Things aren’t interesting without conflict and resolution of conflict—or striving towards a resolutions of conflict. To me that’s interesting. And also, by the way: that’s just how it is. Oh you don’t have any problems: What about getting older and eventually you’re going to die? What about solving that problem mentally in your head? There’s a problem for you even if your life is perfect. Life is a series of problems to figure out how to solve gracefully and with dignity. That is what life is and I can’t see it any other way. And that’s glorious, that’s great. It doesn’t mean anybody has to be in a bad mood either.” - Aimee Mann

Source: http://badatcursive.com (via tumblr)

For the record, I do agree w/the end of what Aimee said some of the time (or a lot of the time.)  But sometimes, I think it's f*cking annoying that life is a series of problems, heh.

I witnessed some weird shit today and listening to Aimee's music was the only thing that made things make sense.  Even if her lyrics didn't match everything, something about the music did.
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